The other night I was sick and could not sleep. As often happens when I am awake at 3am my mind wanders. I do my best thinking in the middle of the night or when I am having a shower. I find I am not trying to think about things so my brain is relaxed and things begin to flow. So I thought I would share a typical thought process that happened and how it led me to a life lesson.
I knew my husband was leaving for the airport at 7am so would not be able to take the kids to school while I rested.
I decided I would drive the 500m to school even though I feel guilty doing this when I am not going anywhere else afterwards.
I ended up visualizing myself driving to the school and parking where I often end up (there is great competition for parking spaces near the school). It is a spot towards the top of the hill I have mentioned we usually walk up to get there.
Suddenly I was reminded of all the times I parked there, got out of the car and discovered there were other spots around the corner and closer to school.
Something in me makes me grab that spot for fear there might not be another after the turn.
Even though I know sometimes there are spaces I have not allowed the evidence to stand for itself. I second guess it and play it safe.
My mind started exploring what holds me back from turning that corner. It is the same thing as always: fear – fear of the unknown, fear of making the wrong choice, fear of being late which to me means ” I failed”.
My 3:30am brain started thinking about what would happen if I started to look around the corners in life. What if I did not always play it safe? What if just every once in a while I did not over-think how it would turn out and instead I just did “it”?
I started to visualise the drive to school and saw my car turn that corner and drive happily along, singing along with the radio. I did not see where I parked the car, but fell asleep again feeling at peace with not knowing.
The journey I am on keeps changing and I think that is the same for everyone – if you let it unfold rather than keep trying to direct things. The more we play it safe the more things stay the same. Change cannot happen without risk, courage, facing reality, being honest with ourselves, making mistakes, getting it “wrong” to find our “right”.
What do you think might be just around the corner? Are you ready to find out?
Find your simple,
adventure is around every corner
a ship in port is safe